This year there was no Thanksgiving. None what-so-ever. In fact, I didn't even feel like it had been thanksgiving. It was a weird feeling, as I am sure other Canadian holidays will be, that being in a country that doesn't celebrate a holiday (stores have all the decorations, the food, the candy, and whatever else they can convince you that you NEED for this holiday) other holidays you once celebrated, totally bypass you without really realizing it.
Wow, busy, busy week this week (I realize now that it has been more than a week... I have given up all hope of my diary oath I had made...for three strait weeks I wrote, and then nothing. Totally gave up. But I have been writing notes on my calender though...) Okay!
Sunday the 12th, I had my first dance class! It was so great! I am really happy about it, because it is standard (ballroom) dancing! Even though I didn't have a partner, I was told that one guy didn't have a partner, but he didn't show up that day, so I danced with the assistant teacher (who turned out to be a girl that Kimi went to school with, and she was really nice...although, it was a little strange to be dancing with a girl, it was okay, because she knew the guys' steps really well). Anyhow, and we practiced for the dances for Fritz's 60th birthday (which was on Friday). Then when I came home from dance, Edi and Toli, from church asked me if I wanted to go for a drink or something. So they picked me up and we went to Enchiladas and we talked and ate a little and had some drinks (eis kaffee!!). I loved it! It was so great to hang out with them. It was, I believe, the first time that I really felt like I was at home. Hanging out with them really reminded me of hanging out with good friends, and it felt so great. They are really great guys and we talked about all sorts of stuff! It was awesome!
Monday was a rather boring day. I wanted to fall asleep (and I am 100% sure that I did that day). But then I was called out of the class by my second host mom, and I switched classes! So I am now in the 12th grade, not the 11th. And even though the days are longer sometimes, the classes (especially the English class) are much better. And so many more people talked to me within the first two days!! It was such a nice change! And I don't really mind getting to know more people. I have been saying hi to the other girls in the 11th class still, at the bus stop, etc.
Tuesday I got a hair cut. It was a little shorter than I wanted, but I got a good deal, because Heike is a friend and I had it cut at her studio. But I want to grow out my hair again. Although it is easier shorter, I like it longer, I think.
Wednesday: REVOLVERHELD!!!!!!!!!!!! It was so AWESOME! And I was so excited to go!! It was so great! Because the concert was in this bar\disco and was about the same size of A.L.Fortune's gym! We were standing and had tonnes of elbow room, and were about 10 feet away from the band! It was so awesome! And tickets were only, 24€!! Best concert ever! I went with Meike and her best friend Lisa. So it was fun!
Thursday: went out with two girls in my new class; Nadine and Janika. And I love them! They are so great! I want to get to know them more, because I think we have a lot in common, just with being open minded (it is hard to find open minded Germans in this area) and things like that. So I had a great time talking with them, and just hanging out, getting to know them.
Friday: Fritz's 60th Birthday. We left at 3pm and we got back at about 4AM in the MORNING!!! It was insane! And it was good. There were lots of people there and there were other people performing besides us. It was nice. We ate TOO much and danced lots! Surprisingly, I wasn't nervous about going in front of everyone and performing. I somehow had this nonchalant confidence about it. I liked doing the performances. It was nice.
Saturday: Slept in a long time, and was invited by another group of girls from another class to go to this acoustic concert with them in the same town where I have church. It turned out to be a not so great night with those girls (they were drinking before we went and weren't really talking to me) and when we got to the concert, I was talking with Lena and Jessica (girls I went to Stuttgart with) and I turned around and the other girls were gone! So I stuck with Lena and Jessica, and had a much better time with them. The girls that invited me, wanted to go to this house party after the concert ended, but I wanted to go home because of church on Sunday, so I ended up talking with Lena and Jessica, and got a ride home with them, thank goodness they were there! I was not so fond of how the girls took care of me, being their guest to come with them, but a bad night turned into a good one with Lena and Jessica! :)
Sunday: Went to church and dance, and took a night to relax. I was offered to go to small groups at Edi's house, but I was tired, and needed a night to recuperate from the week. (busy, busy!) It was nice to just relax at home. Bebe and Ralf had gone to a birthday party and I watched a movie. Dance went okay...my partner was there this time, but he kind of smelt of stale alcohol and smoke. He was an okay dancer, though. To make up for the lessons that I missed (I have to pay the full price, but I can take practice lessons on Saturday) I am going in on Saturday and I will have a different partner. One of the teachers was going to look for one for me. We shall see how that goes.
Monday: I went to school and came home, went to Aalen for the German course, and when I came home, I asked Ralf if I would be able to go to the Staatsgallerie on Tuesday. (I had only 1 and a half hours of school because 3 hours were taken up by the students doing a German test, so I didn't have to go to school, and I thought that it would be interesting to check out a museum in Stuttgart. So I explained to Ralf what I was thinking and my reasons for thinking this, and he was relatively good about it and considered it calmly. But then Bebe came home and she was yelling at me, and I felt like the biggest, stupidest, thoughtless exchange student in the world. (I'm not and I know that, but it's just the way that she makes me feel when I am around her sometimes and she yells at me for no reason) I tried to explain myself, but it just didn't go well. So I cleared my dinner plate and went down stairs to my room after she was finished and I cried. All homesickness, loneliness, helplessness, feelings of encasement, and lack of independence rushed at me at once and overwhelmed me for a good 15 minutes. After Bebe had talked to my counselor about the situation, she called me upstairs to tell me that I could actually GO! It was so bizzaar, the way that her emotions changed in such a short time. I don't know if she realized the affect of her words and attitude had on me, but I feel that I have to sit down Ralf and Bebe when Ralf gets back home, and I need to have a talk to them about how I am feeling and these issues that have arised.
So today, I went to Stuttgart, alone!!!! It was so great! I felt this exhilarating freedom and independence, it was so great! I took the train there, went to the Staatsgallerie and stayed there for about 3 hours and looked at all the paintings and exhibition then came home by train once again. It was easy to find, once I knew where I was and where I needed to go. I had a map and information, and after asking a passerby for directions, I found the Gallery in no time. There was an exhibition on Matisse, and it wasn't too bad, but I am more of a Romantic period art lover. It was a big gallery, but was easy to maneuver around. It was nice to experience a touristy kind of day. I have been longing to go to museums and art galleries, but I don't think that Bebe and Ralf have time, or necessarily to go with me. So I am glad that I made a decision to go, and that my counselor allowed me to go. It was such a breath of fresh air from the old routine of going to school and sitting at home! A little bit of cultural 'food'. One of the purposes of my coming here; for the culture!!!
Sometimes, just thinking about thanksgiving, it is sometimes hard to think of ways to be thankful during hard times. But I guess everything is for the best. Hopefully things are cleared up, the misunderstandings and the struggles of family differences. I am most thankful for home support though, it is greatly appreciated, and I am loving everyone for all their love that they send! Thank you! And although there was no turkey for me this Thanksgiving, I am confident to say that I hope to think of other, much lest taste-filled things to be thankful for this month.
K
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Oktoberfest
Another week has past already and I have been here for about a month and just over a week. It is hard to believe. I feel like things are going slower than I though for being 1\11th over. So to start where I left off...
I went to dinner with four girls (Jacky, Laura, Tanja, and I forget the other girl's name) from my class on the 2nd of October to Aalen. It was okay. We went to this bar\restaurant called Enchiladas and ate Mexican food...well, German style Mexican food. It was good, and we had mocktails, and we talked and it was nice to get out of the house for a couple of hours for a change. Oh, and before I went out, Kathryn from the 5060 district and her husband came for coffee to chat about the RI Convention and just to visit. It was nice. Then on the Friday the 3rd, there was no school because it was like a stat holiday. 'Tag der Deutschen Eunheit' which is the day of the reunification of the two Germanys. I lazed around all day, and didn't do anything in particular. It was nice to relax. I was kind of surprised though, because they don't any parades, or anything like that. Bebe said maybe in Berlin or Hamburg, but not here. So we had no school also, which was really nice. :)
Then on Saturday the 4th we loaded the car and took off to Munich for Oktoberfest. It was a two hour drive, and I have learned that that is A LOT for Germans, or any European, I think, to drive so far and so many hours. Usually, people just stay within their region, I think. I was talking to some people, and they said that they don't even go to Stuttgart because it is very far. And I was thinking WHAT? because Kelowna is an hour away too, about the same time, and I used to go there often within the past year. Plus, to drive 15 minutes away for church, I guess is a big thing when I explained that I went to church in Salmon Arm. I think it is also because everything is closer here, so you don't have to go so far. Anyhow. Oktoberfest was not what I expected it to be. Well, it was and it wasn't. I knew that we would be in the tent, but I didn't know we would be there for the whole 6 hours! We got in Munich at about noon and we went to a restaurant and ate a bit, stayed there for a couple hours, then I went with Eugenio to Alex's flat (where we would sleep that night in one room with Alex, Axi, Carol, and Phillip) to change and to waste some time before it was 5 pm, which was when our reservation was at. So then when we got there, the others learned that we could not come back into the tent if we left. (I knew this already from the Cannstatter Wassen, but didn't know what everybodyelse's plans were, because they also talked about going on rides and stuff, so I figured that we wouldn't stay in the tent till it closed (which we did). Apparently, though, it is really difficult to get into the tent we were in, because our tent was mostly people from Munich. There are different kinds of tents, some tents are filled with Australians, some with other tourists, etc, etc. Although, the foreigner tents are usually a lot more rowdy than the Native tents. So it was good though, because we were also in a reserved seating area. Apparently it's the envy of many Germans to actually get a seat at the Oktoberfest and people only get in if they book a year before...or more.
Anyhow, so I drank lemonade, and everyone else was drinking what ever mixture of beer and lemonade they preferred, and we took pictures and ate some snacks, and sang along with the band, and we talked, and it was all good for the first couple hours. At around the third hour I was getting pretty bored and everyone else had more to drink, and were getting a little too light-hearted. I liked the music the most, just the umpapa of the band and everyone knowing the words and singing and dancing. (a correction about the getting on the benches to order, they just get on the benches to dance and sing, just to have fun...) and that was all good. But there were some songs that didn't have that great of lyrics...But a couple of songs really stuck in my head: Fliegenlied (which is actually a children's song, but very catchy, and we do actions, and when everyone is drunk, it seems pretty funny), Viva Colonia, Country Roads, and Ein Prosit (which they sing about every 2 minutes, and its a toasting song, so everyone clinks their mugs together with everyone and says PROST! 'cheers!' and sings the song). A couple more that we sang are: Hände zum Himmel, Fürstenfeld, Marmor, Stein und Eisen bricht, and some others that I don't know the names. Anyhow, I after a while, I asked if we could walk around a bit and Bärbel (I spelt it Belbe before) and I went outside for a while so that I could get some souvenirs, but we went back in the tent after (we had talked to the security dude).
There were a lot of drunk people, and I was glad that I was with a group of people that I knew. Although was a little upset because some of our people were drunk themselves. But finally the tent closed at 11pm, and we left for home (some of us - my feet were killing me and it was freezing). So then when we got to Alex's and Axi's flat (with some difficulty and a lot of having to stay close to each other because of the hoards of people in the train station and on the trains) all six of us slept in the one room that they have and I quickly went to sleep. The next morning, we woke up, had a small breakfast, and later Ralf and Bebe came to take me home. I was disappointed to not go on rides or see anything outside when it was still daylight, or do anything other than be in the tent, but I am glad that I got to at least get out for the ten minutes with Bärbel. Perhaps one year, if I go again, I will get to do the other things that are at Oktoberfest. All in all, I think the whole experience kind of queezed me a bit, because I don't really like being around drunk people. But was an experience I am sure I won't forget. :)
Anyhow. Then on Sunday it was the Erntedankfest day, so it was kind of a holiday too. And Monday, I went to school, both in Heubach and in Aalen. And on Thursday, I went to this Innerwheel meeting with Bärbel and Ebi and Eugenio. It was a tour of Binz, a company that is a partner or something with Mercedes Benz and they take new Mercedes and cut them in half and make them longer, into Limos. They also make hearses and Swedish 'krankenwagens' (ambulances). They are kind of cool. The reason that they are an ugly yellow colour is because in Sweden, they have 8 months of snow and the elk don't like this colour. Then after that we went to a bar\restaurant to eat and have a drink. I had a fruity mocktail, that was nice, and some Kasebrot (cheese bread). Also, that evening, I had a nice talk with Bärbel. I asked her about switching classes in school (why should I be stuck with people a year younger than me, when I am finished school and school doesn't matter grades-wise for me, and I don't understand anything that they are saying anyways?), and also about difficulties with the host family and just having been feeling like I am a replacement child, not necessarily an exchange student. And even though her daughter is also out on exchange, Bärbel was very good to talk to. I think I have found my not-counselor counselor. Which is nice, because she is also my second host mother. So hopefully somethings go a bit better within the next few weeks, just with school and trying to figure out the best way of dealing with this issue.
Then yesterday, I went to the jazz\hip hop dance class, which was good, I knew a bit more of the steps from the last time, and then I went to youth group. It was a nice service, even though I didn't understand. Kristina translated me the gist of what they were talking about, so it was okay. And also, after that, Edi asked me if I wanted to come to Schwäbisch Gmünd with him and Iris, Esther, and I forget the other girl's name, to go check out this party thing going on. It is where there are live bands playing at all the bars, and they were going to check out the bands. So I went along and it was great. We walked around the town to each bar and checked out the music that the bands were playing. Some were really good, others, not so good. And unfortunately, most of the time they were on break, so we had to go to another bar. It was nice to hang out with other Christians, and just get a feel of how they hang out in Germany. It was a great time!
Today, I went to Stuttgart with three other girls from my class, Lena, Jessica, and Steffie. I wanted to see what they were like too. I ended up missing the train when we were supposed to meet (It's going to take me a while to get used to managing my life around train and bus schedules, I really don't like it) but then they called me and we took the next train an hour later. We went to the Cannstatter Wassen and walked around a bit, went on two rides and then went to Königs Strasse and did some shopping. I finally found a nice pair of pants that I was satisfied with and a nice price too: 14.95€. Most of the clothes are relative to that of dollars, but just say €, although if you convert the currency, they are much more expensive, but this pair was a nice find. There were some crazy talented people on the street, playing music and doing art. It was insane! There was this guy that was doing a huge chalk drawing on the sidewalk and he was super good! I grew very sad at the thought that if it rained, his very hard work and lovely drawing would be washed away! He was so very good! There was also these two African-French guys that were playing some pretty cool music, and I bought their CD they had there. It was three different versions of the same song, but I always find joy in helping out people who are performing on the street. I really want the best for them, and feel bad that I have so much, and sometimes they have so little. I remember there was this one guy in London that was playing really good music in the tube and I wish that people with so much talent (also the opera singer in London) would be recognized.
Anyhow, so today was nice. It was great to go to Stuttgart again. I recognized shops that I went to a year and a half ago, and that was nice. It familiar, and it's so nice to feel like something is familiar to you in an unfamiliar country. I was so tired once we started for home, because we walked all day (which was nice because I have been having a lack of exercise since being here - Why do I feel like I am echoing Rotary???).
Tomorrow I have a full day of events! I have church! And then some people are coming over to practice for Fritz's (Ralf's older brother) birthday bash in the next weeks. Bebe loves to put on shows for peoples birthdays, and we are doing a dance to the Star Sisters Medley! It is fun. We have golden hats, shoes, and blazers with coattails, black shorts and fishnets, and even homemade microphones (complete with silver spray painted tennis balls for the mics). So I think that it will be fun. Also, Bebe is lip syncing a Natalie Cole song, while some of us dance around in different outfits. So we are practicing tomorrow after I come back from church. Then at 4pm I have dance class!! I am so excited because it is a 'standard' dance class: with cha cha, tango, waltz, etc, etc! I hope that it goes well! I have to go to Aalen for the class, and conveniently the studio is right across from the train station, so I don't have to wait for a bus...although I don't know if I will take the train because of the times on Sunday. We will see.) Anyhow!
Then on Wednesday, I am going to a Revolverheld concert! I am very excited for that too - they are a German band that Spencer introduced to me when he came back from Switzerland. I am going with Ralf's niece and her brothers girlfriend (they are doing the Star Sisters dance with Bebe and I). So that will be fun, and will be nice also to get out and do something fun. :)
So far, that's all I know. I will sometime within the next few weeks be able to visit Gülsah (from when I was in Germany a year and a half ago)! So I am excited to see her also. Alex (McGregor from district 5060) was also talking about going to Salzburg in Austria for a day or something, but I have yet to get details and confirmation. Anyhow, I am starting to feel the upsides of being here, and have been starting to get to know people (Edi, Kristina, and Eva from church, and the girls from school, as well as hopefully people from my dance class!!!!!) and I am really taking in the fact that I am in Europe (it's hard to believe, but I don't really think that I am in Europe, sometimes...). So things are slowly getting together, and I am starting to have a bit more fun. :) So until next time, Bis bald und viel spaß,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lAC55KiQaXE
K
I went to dinner with four girls (Jacky, Laura, Tanja, and I forget the other girl's name) from my class on the 2nd of October to Aalen. It was okay. We went to this bar\restaurant called Enchiladas and ate Mexican food...well, German style Mexican food. It was good, and we had mocktails, and we talked and it was nice to get out of the house for a couple of hours for a change. Oh, and before I went out, Kathryn from the 5060 district and her husband came for coffee to chat about the RI Convention and just to visit. It was nice. Then on the Friday the 3rd, there was no school because it was like a stat holiday. 'Tag der Deutschen Eunheit' which is the day of the reunification of the two Germanys. I lazed around all day, and didn't do anything in particular. It was nice to relax. I was kind of surprised though, because they don't any parades, or anything like that. Bebe said maybe in Berlin or Hamburg, but not here. So we had no school also, which was really nice. :)
Then on Saturday the 4th we loaded the car and took off to Munich for Oktoberfest. It was a two hour drive, and I have learned that that is A LOT for Germans, or any European, I think, to drive so far and so many hours. Usually, people just stay within their region, I think. I was talking to some people, and they said that they don't even go to Stuttgart because it is very far. And I was thinking WHAT? because Kelowna is an hour away too, about the same time, and I used to go there often within the past year. Plus, to drive 15 minutes away for church, I guess is a big thing when I explained that I went to church in Salmon Arm. I think it is also because everything is closer here, so you don't have to go so far. Anyhow. Oktoberfest was not what I expected it to be. Well, it was and it wasn't. I knew that we would be in the tent, but I didn't know we would be there for the whole 6 hours! We got in Munich at about noon and we went to a restaurant and ate a bit, stayed there for a couple hours, then I went with Eugenio to Alex's flat (where we would sleep that night in one room with Alex, Axi, Carol, and Phillip) to change and to waste some time before it was 5 pm, which was when our reservation was at. So then when we got there, the others learned that we could not come back into the tent if we left. (I knew this already from the Cannstatter Wassen, but didn't know what everybodyelse's plans were, because they also talked about going on rides and stuff, so I figured that we wouldn't stay in the tent till it closed (which we did). Apparently, though, it is really difficult to get into the tent we were in, because our tent was mostly people from Munich. There are different kinds of tents, some tents are filled with Australians, some with other tourists, etc, etc. Although, the foreigner tents are usually a lot more rowdy than the Native tents. So it was good though, because we were also in a reserved seating area. Apparently it's the envy of many Germans to actually get a seat at the Oktoberfest and people only get in if they book a year before...or more.
Anyhow, so I drank lemonade, and everyone else was drinking what ever mixture of beer and lemonade they preferred, and we took pictures and ate some snacks, and sang along with the band, and we talked, and it was all good for the first couple hours. At around the third hour I was getting pretty bored and everyone else had more to drink, and were getting a little too light-hearted. I liked the music the most, just the umpapa of the band and everyone knowing the words and singing and dancing. (a correction about the getting on the benches to order, they just get on the benches to dance and sing, just to have fun...) and that was all good. But there were some songs that didn't have that great of lyrics...But a couple of songs really stuck in my head: Fliegenlied (which is actually a children's song, but very catchy, and we do actions, and when everyone is drunk, it seems pretty funny), Viva Colonia, Country Roads, and Ein Prosit (which they sing about every 2 minutes, and its a toasting song, so everyone clinks their mugs together with everyone and says PROST! 'cheers!' and sings the song). A couple more that we sang are: Hände zum Himmel, Fürstenfeld, Marmor, Stein und Eisen bricht, and some others that I don't know the names. Anyhow, I after a while, I asked if we could walk around a bit and Bärbel (I spelt it Belbe before) and I went outside for a while so that I could get some souvenirs, but we went back in the tent after (we had talked to the security dude).
There were a lot of drunk people, and I was glad that I was with a group of people that I knew. Although was a little upset because some of our people were drunk themselves. But finally the tent closed at 11pm, and we left for home (some of us - my feet were killing me and it was freezing). So then when we got to Alex's and Axi's flat (with some difficulty and a lot of having to stay close to each other because of the hoards of people in the train station and on the trains) all six of us slept in the one room that they have and I quickly went to sleep. The next morning, we woke up, had a small breakfast, and later Ralf and Bebe came to take me home. I was disappointed to not go on rides or see anything outside when it was still daylight, or do anything other than be in the tent, but I am glad that I got to at least get out for the ten minutes with Bärbel. Perhaps one year, if I go again, I will get to do the other things that are at Oktoberfest. All in all, I think the whole experience kind of queezed me a bit, because I don't really like being around drunk people. But was an experience I am sure I won't forget. :)
Anyhow. Then on Sunday it was the Erntedankfest day, so it was kind of a holiday too. And Monday, I went to school, both in Heubach and in Aalen. And on Thursday, I went to this Innerwheel meeting with Bärbel and Ebi and Eugenio. It was a tour of Binz, a company that is a partner or something with Mercedes Benz and they take new Mercedes and cut them in half and make them longer, into Limos. They also make hearses and Swedish 'krankenwagens' (ambulances). They are kind of cool. The reason that they are an ugly yellow colour is because in Sweden, they have 8 months of snow and the elk don't like this colour. Then after that we went to a bar\restaurant to eat and have a drink. I had a fruity mocktail, that was nice, and some Kasebrot (cheese bread). Also, that evening, I had a nice talk with Bärbel. I asked her about switching classes in school (why should I be stuck with people a year younger than me, when I am finished school and school doesn't matter grades-wise for me, and I don't understand anything that they are saying anyways?), and also about difficulties with the host family and just having been feeling like I am a replacement child, not necessarily an exchange student. And even though her daughter is also out on exchange, Bärbel was very good to talk to. I think I have found my not-counselor counselor. Which is nice, because she is also my second host mother. So hopefully somethings go a bit better within the next few weeks, just with school and trying to figure out the best way of dealing with this issue.
Then yesterday, I went to the jazz\hip hop dance class, which was good, I knew a bit more of the steps from the last time, and then I went to youth group. It was a nice service, even though I didn't understand. Kristina translated me the gist of what they were talking about, so it was okay. And also, after that, Edi asked me if I wanted to come to Schwäbisch Gmünd with him and Iris, Esther, and I forget the other girl's name, to go check out this party thing going on. It is where there are live bands playing at all the bars, and they were going to check out the bands. So I went along and it was great. We walked around the town to each bar and checked out the music that the bands were playing. Some were really good, others, not so good. And unfortunately, most of the time they were on break, so we had to go to another bar. It was nice to hang out with other Christians, and just get a feel of how they hang out in Germany. It was a great time!
Today, I went to Stuttgart with three other girls from my class, Lena, Jessica, and Steffie. I wanted to see what they were like too. I ended up missing the train when we were supposed to meet (It's going to take me a while to get used to managing my life around train and bus schedules, I really don't like it) but then they called me and we took the next train an hour later. We went to the Cannstatter Wassen and walked around a bit, went on two rides and then went to Königs Strasse and did some shopping. I finally found a nice pair of pants that I was satisfied with and a nice price too: 14.95€. Most of the clothes are relative to that of dollars, but just say €, although if you convert the currency, they are much more expensive, but this pair was a nice find. There were some crazy talented people on the street, playing music and doing art. It was insane! There was this guy that was doing a huge chalk drawing on the sidewalk and he was super good! I grew very sad at the thought that if it rained, his very hard work and lovely drawing would be washed away! He was so very good! There was also these two African-French guys that were playing some pretty cool music, and I bought their CD they had there. It was three different versions of the same song, but I always find joy in helping out people who are performing on the street. I really want the best for them, and feel bad that I have so much, and sometimes they have so little. I remember there was this one guy in London that was playing really good music in the tube and I wish that people with so much talent (also the opera singer in London) would be recognized.
Anyhow, so today was nice. It was great to go to Stuttgart again. I recognized shops that I went to a year and a half ago, and that was nice. It familiar, and it's so nice to feel like something is familiar to you in an unfamiliar country. I was so tired once we started for home, because we walked all day (which was nice because I have been having a lack of exercise since being here - Why do I feel like I am echoing Rotary???).
Tomorrow I have a full day of events! I have church! And then some people are coming over to practice for Fritz's (Ralf's older brother) birthday bash in the next weeks. Bebe loves to put on shows for peoples birthdays, and we are doing a dance to the Star Sisters Medley! It is fun. We have golden hats, shoes, and blazers with coattails, black shorts and fishnets, and even homemade microphones (complete with silver spray painted tennis balls for the mics). So I think that it will be fun. Also, Bebe is lip syncing a Natalie Cole song, while some of us dance around in different outfits. So we are practicing tomorrow after I come back from church. Then at 4pm I have dance class!! I am so excited because it is a 'standard' dance class: with cha cha, tango, waltz, etc, etc! I hope that it goes well! I have to go to Aalen for the class, and conveniently the studio is right across from the train station, so I don't have to wait for a bus...although I don't know if I will take the train because of the times on Sunday. We will see.) Anyhow!
Then on Wednesday, I am going to a Revolverheld concert! I am very excited for that too - they are a German band that Spencer introduced to me when he came back from Switzerland. I am going with Ralf's niece and her brothers girlfriend (they are doing the Star Sisters dance with Bebe and I). So that will be fun, and will be nice also to get out and do something fun. :)
So far, that's all I know. I will sometime within the next few weeks be able to visit Gülsah (from when I was in Germany a year and a half ago)! So I am excited to see her also. Alex (McGregor from district 5060) was also talking about going to Salzburg in Austria for a day or something, but I have yet to get details and confirmation. Anyhow, I am starting to feel the upsides of being here, and have been starting to get to know people (Edi, Kristina, and Eva from church, and the girls from school, as well as hopefully people from my dance class!!!!!) and I am really taking in the fact that I am in Europe (it's hard to believe, but I don't really think that I am in Europe, sometimes...). So things are slowly getting together, and I am starting to have a bit more fun. :) So until next time, Bis bald und viel spaß,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lAC55KiQaXE
K
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
My Very Own Dirndl!!
So! It is time for an update for the last couple of weeks. Last week was the last full week of the German course in Aalen. It was nice to be there, at the University, and once I started to talk to some of the other exchange students, it was more interesting, I found, than the High school in Heubach. Although, like Ralf had mentioned to me the other day, it's not necessarily good because we speak English, and not so much German, because we all are trying to learn German. But it is nice to have someone to relate to. Anyhow.
On Friday, I had my first dance class. It is a jazz\modern\lyrical\hip hop dance club with about eight or so girls. It was at the fitness center in Mögglingen, so we don't have to pay for it. It was good. The teacher speaks pretty good English and she is very nice. I think that I will keep going, but I would like to go in a 'standard' dance course (ballroom) because I think that I enjoy that dancing much better. So we are looking for a place to do dance perhaps in Aalen or Schwäbisch Gmünd. We will look. Then after dance class, I came home and was picked up by Kristina, from the church in Böbingen that I have been going to, and I went to the youth group there. It is really quite nice, because the average age for the youth is about 24 year old, I think. There are a couple of 16, 17 and 18 year olds, but the majority of the people are in their 20's, and they have quite a large group of them. It was great. We sang some songs and we heard from this guy named Herbert, who is also from the church and he had a message about our consciences then we sang one or two more songs, then we ATE! Yes, we ate. It was great, because I have never heard of a youth group that ate at the meetings. So it was nice, because we got to talk and fellowship. A girl, I can't remember what her name is, she translated for me, the message from Herbert, and I talked with a girl named Eva as well. Both of the girls have gone to the U.S. for a year a couple of years ago, so they spoke really good English. Also, I talked with a guy that had been to Canada for a year, and he is very nice. I like him. It seems like he understands a little bit more than everyone else, which is totally what I need. So I stayed about three and a half hours or so (long, but fun) and then went home. It was a nice time, because the people from the church are 20 times more nice than the people from school.
Saturday, we had our first inbound meeting. It was interesting. We took the train to Stuttgart to the airport. It was our meeting place, which was kind of cool, but odd that we had the meeting three weeks after arriving at the airport. Eugenio and I were late because of the train times and we had started out an hour early before the meeting started! So we were in a hurry, but the train went really slow to the airport. Anyhow, so we had a tour of the airport and where the firefighters went and all about the trucks that they drive, and the practice airplanes, and we saw planes take off and come in, as well as where they sort the baggage. It was kind of neat. Also kind of boring, but that's okay. After the airport, we went to Cannstatter Volksfest in Stuttgart, which is kind of like Oktoberfest, but it is in Stuttgart, and not so internationally known. As soon as we got there, I was thinking; 'Man! This puts West Coast Amusements to shame!' It was a lot like the Armstrong IPE and it was so awesome! The rides were utterly crazy, and I went on two. (The first one seemed pretty tame, and to my surprise, it was more than what it had seemed. But it was wicked fun! Although the tickets to ride, were pretty pricey. The second one was a roller coaster, and I thought I was going to die! Then I coaxed myself to breathe, and everything was much better. I commend them for the thrilling ride, I really do.) There were some pretty outrageous rides there! I can't even describe them, because words just don't do them justice. Like I said, West Coast Amusements would have their jaws on the ground!
Anyhow, so at first, I was rather homesick, being at the airport and all, I desperately wished that I could go on the plane home, and at the Volksfest, it reminded me a lot of home and fond memories. There are about 18 inbounds here, in district 1830, and that really surprised me. I was hoping and expecting more! But the main countries of inbounds are Canada, U.S., and Mexico. There are about three or four from each of those countries, there is a couple from Argentina, one from Columbia, one from Japan, one from Thailand, and a couple others, but I forget. So you either speak English or Spanish, really. I was kind of disappointed, because I was expecting and hoping to have more people in the district and more people from different countries, like 5060, but I guess, with Rotary, everything is really, just different. So anyhow, at first, I was a bit bummed and sad, but then I started talking to this guy from Mexico, Emmanuel, and he was super nice. We were walking and talking when we went to one of the big tents to have our lunch\dinner. The tents, are really neat (besides the fact that the majority of people are drunk and there is a lot of smoke because people smoke in the tent) because there are hundreds of people squished into one big tent, and there is a live band playing festive music, people are dancing on the benches of the tables (you have to stand if you want to order something, then the waiter or waitress comes to you) and they are singing, and laughing, and people seem to have a good time! While we were at the tent, we sat in a reserved seating area (which was nice, because we weren't with all the drunk people) and we were served. Almost everyone ordered the typical 1L beer (which is half lemonade), but I wasn't into that, so I drank .4 L of 7 Up. I am not into drinking 1L of anything in one sitting anyways. But it was unbelievable watching the waitresses!! They carry like, 5 of those FULL GLASS 1 LITER beer mugs! IN ONE HAND!!! So they are carrying at least 10 mugs in their arms at once. It is really impressive. Everyone was served the same for lunch\dinner too: a half of about a 2 pound chicken and a bun. It was really good. The chicken was rotisserie style and you should have seen them cooking them. There are like, hundreds of those birds cooking on these rotisserie things. Its neat. And so we stayed in the tent for a while, and a group of us went out of the tent later on (after the meeting was 'officially' over). We walked around, bought some pins and souvenirs, went on a couple of rides, I bought a Gingerbread Love Heart Cookie (they are a typical souvenir) and some chocolate covered bananas and strawberries, which were to die for! It was fun once I started talking with people and started to open up a bit. It was really nice to have Alex there from district 5060, it made things a bit easier, knowing that there is someone there from my district. Although it was kind of sad, just comparing first day of school, etc, with her. People seem to be a bit more personable in her area.
Anyhow, so at about 8 we started for home. I was unimpressed with the lack of responsible drinking within the exchange students and some of the rebounds. It was not a happy night after that. Eugenio and I got off at the wrong stop, people were drunk and throwing up, and I was very upset and homesick. Ralf came and got us from the train station we were at. I felt very guilty that he had to come and pick us up, but he said that it was normal, and that it was okay. I am very thankful! So the experience coming home and after was not so great, and made me very homesick. But the time that I spent there was nice.
The next day, Sunday, it was a thanksgiving service at church (Erntedank fest). It was really neat. They don't have it like a thanksgiving in Canada or the U.S.. It is more thanks to God for everything that He gives us. So it was super awesome because it was focused on God and being thankful for what we have! (the thanksgiving holiday is actually this Sunday but we celebrated it last Sunday) So we had lunch after the service and we talked (Herbert translated for me and I ate lunch with Addi and Kristina and a girl..I forget her name, they were all very nice) and had a nice time. There was another short service at 2pm, but I went home after the lunch. When I came home, I helped Bebe made necklaces and bracelets for her art exhibition in the coming weeks. And that was nice, to relax and spend time with her. Then I had a nap and tried to do some studying. Then at about 6 45Pm, Kristina picked me up to go to this youth service at the school in Böbingen. It was cool. It reminded me of church a little, because there was more contemporary music and there were drums and piano, and bass, and guitar and someone singing. It was much nicer, because I like the live music, instead of the CD music. The church, though is more conservative and traditional than the Salmon Arm one. Which is okay. It is different, but the people are very friendly. A girl translated the message that was said at the youth night. There was a guy from Austria that was giving the message about not getting enough from life, and finding satisfaction in Jesus! It was good. There were a lot of people there, and again, the age group was from about 16 to 30. So it was an older group, but nice. It gave a different perspective and audience than I am used to, but it was good. I love how they pray though, the thought of prayer in a different language and culture, is so awesome to me. It boggles my mind! Because I think, well, yeah, of course, God must speak German too! (and every other language) I felt my eyes open a teensy bit.
So I stayed for a bit, and everyone stayed WAY longer than I did, but I had school Monday. So on Monday, it was a very long day, I had to go to Heubach AND Aalen. It was not a good day though. I had a confusing first class. I didn't know if I was in the right class, because we had been away for the first full two weeks and I think the class might have switched classrooms, but it was weird. The teacher didn't say anything to me. Not even ask what my name was. It was funny. I was sitting in the back of the room, and then he looked over, after, when everyone was doing work (I was working in my German workbook) and he came over to where I was sitting. I took out my schedule for school, and pointed to the classroom, and he just smiled and made a funny mark on the paper, and then went back to the front of the class. It was funny and odd. I didn't know what to think about it. He didn't even ask me anything the whole class. The class was NWT, which is like natural sciences and technology, I think.
Then when we came back to the regular room that we are in, I sat in what I thought was the back of the room, but I saw Eugenio take a desk and put it one row back. I was like 'what are you doing??' and then this guy from my class came and stared at me. And I was like, okay, there is a spot here and here on either side of me, pick one. (of course, I did all this with body language) And he just stared at me. I was like, well, whatever. Then he said that I was sitting in his spot. OH! A light went on, and I guess the last row of desks was gone, so I was sitting where he normally sits. Well, I had a choice to make. Get up and go to another seat, or just stay where I was. Okay, well I quickly thought about this. No one talks to me in school because I don't sit next to anyone, because they have their own friends. I am not doing enough to integrate myself. I am not being assertive. I won't make friends if don't sit with people, and I have to be assertive. Obviously no one else is trying to make me feel welcome in the class, so I have to take the first step. So I said, okay. I will stay here. What is the harm in sitting somewhere different for one day???
Obviously I did something VERY wrong. The guy was very upset by this. He was not impressed, and the rest of the class thought that I was crazy and stupid for not getting out of my seat. But I innocently thought that I didn't want to be segregated from the rest of the class like an African American in the 60's. And so I sat. Like Rosa Parks. Or so I thought.
So the teacher said sit down to the guy, and he took a seat beside Eugenio in the back, because I wouldn't move. I thought that it was both good for me, Eugenio (because now someone was forced to talk to him too..sometimes I feel bad for the kid because no one talks to him either...except me) and also this guy, because perhaps it would enable him to talk to someone different for a change. Anyhow, I felt like I had accomplished something by stepping out of my quiet, reserved shell and that I was doing something that took a little courage, something that I lack in when it comes to making friends, when I am not used to the setting (especially in another country and I don't speak the language...yet). So I was thinking about it, at the time, and was feeling like finally, I did not take the passive position, where I am not talked to, or don't talk to anyone and sit in the corner alone. But then after two classes, the guy came up to me and asked me again why I was sitting in his seat. I said 'to integrate' and his reply was 'you are already integrated.' In my mind I did not believe this, since no one talks to me at school. So he again asked me to move. When I didn't, he asked me if I understood. It was a little too much for me at this point and when I was thinking about everything, I felt horrible. Like no one wanted me there, like no one wanted to be my friend, and no one understood what it was like. So I told him that yes, I understood, and I packed up my things, and went to the bathroom and cried.
I was in there for about 10 minutes and a girl named Jacky (who is the class speaker, I believe) came in and found me. It was nice. God answered a prayer, and she talked to me, and I asked her why no one talks to me at school. I think she was a bit embarrassed about this, and she talked to me about things. I guess, it's that I am shy, and when no one expresses an interest to be my friend, I just close up. And I guess if it is the other way, I would open up right away, but they don't know this. Anyhow. I talked to her, and then I wanted to go home (both to Canada and to the Sporys. But I knew that I couldn't do either.) So after she said that she would talk to her friends and the class, I told her she should go back to class, and I went to the area where there are tables and did some work until the next break. Then I went to Nils' class to tell him I was going to wait for him and the teacher invited me to sit in on their class. That was fun. They are in grade 5 and are learning English. I liked Nils' class much better! The kids were nice, and more interested in the fact that I was there. It was great for Nils too, Ralf told me that he loved it when I was there. :) Anyhow, and so the day wasn't so great.
Anyhow. But in the evening, after the German course, I spent some time with Ralf and Bebe and we talked, and it was a nice evening. I love hanging out with them. It is nice too, because they are understanding.
Then today, I was very worried about going to school. Because Eugenio told me that everyone thinks that I am crazy now. But I am convincing myself that I don't need to care about what they think of me. Its what God thinks of me that matters, and I know that He loves me no matter what. I was thinking though, about how I need to deal with this situation. If I didn't show up, I would be a coward. Although I feel like one for running from the classroom yesterday. But anyhow, I went and today was better, because I hardly cared that no one talked to me. I was more focused on how God sees me. And today was better. It was good to face that fear, it was an accomplishment today. And after school, Jacky and her two friends came and asked me to come with them to Aalen for dinner on Thursday. So that was super nice too. I think that I will go (even though it is the same night as youth group this week, I think that it is important to go with them for the first time to show them who I am outside of school). Anyhow. So today was much better.
Last night I was reading over the papers that we were given from the Outbound Orientation Weekend in the spring, and oh my goodness, does it ever hit home! I was thinking at the time, that these things wouldn't apply to me so much, and that I wouldn't need to bring them, but am I ever glad that I did! Rotary knows their stuff! And am I ever glad that I have 5060 behind my back, supporting me! I am super glad, and I felt so much closer to Rotary, realizing that they understand how I am feeling, and other people have been through this too. So it was comforting! I was very reassured that I was not alone in this, that every exchange student goes through something like this, and hard times, especially with the language at first. Was I ever glad!!
Anyhow, so today I went to get my passport type photos for my visa (yes, I know it should have been done two weeks ago, but don't worry, it's okay) and that was really great. They turned out really nice, and I love the guy from the studio we took them at.. He is super nice, and did a good job. His work is really good. Kathryn Kemp phoned me today and I am meeting her on Thursday, from my district 5060. So that is nice. She is a Rotarian. And then we came home, ate, and Bebe had a present for me!!
A DIRNDL!!! My very own!!! I was super, super excited, because I wanted one so very much!!! I can wear it to Oktoberfest, and it is great! Bebe and Ralf bought it from a friend and eBay for me, and it is white with lime green flowers! I love it! And I have a white apron! And it is a bit short, so Bebe will make it a little longer for me tomorrow (it was way too long when they got it, and she had hemmed it, but she thinks that I will be always pulling it down, so she said that she would make it longer for me! She is so sweet! :P) and she also made me a leather little purse with a strap made from the dirndl material!! It is so lovely! I hugged them and said thank you many times! They are so wonderful! And Bebe and I put on our dirndls and tried to find the best shoes that looked the best, and then were trying on necklaces and earrings that went with the shoes and dirndls the best. It was so fun. And it was great too! I feel very loved and spoilt. :) It was a nice change from the not so great day yesterday. I love hanging out with my host family. They make me feel very at home. :)
Anyhow. I have to go to bed. I will write more possibly next week. Sorry that I am not able to reply to every email, but I am will try to keep the blog as up to date as I can! Thank you everyone for your support and emails. It is nice to hear from home, and thank you that you have made it possible for me to be here. I am ever so thankful! I hope to learn lots from these experiences, and I feel that I am really starting to get used to being here, and to overcome some fears and differences of culture and character. So danke! And bis später!
K
On Friday, I had my first dance class. It is a jazz\modern\lyrical\hip hop dance club with about eight or so girls. It was at the fitness center in Mögglingen, so we don't have to pay for it. It was good. The teacher speaks pretty good English and she is very nice. I think that I will keep going, but I would like to go in a 'standard' dance course (ballroom) because I think that I enjoy that dancing much better. So we are looking for a place to do dance perhaps in Aalen or Schwäbisch Gmünd. We will look. Then after dance class, I came home and was picked up by Kristina, from the church in Böbingen that I have been going to, and I went to the youth group there. It is really quite nice, because the average age for the youth is about 24 year old, I think. There are a couple of 16, 17 and 18 year olds, but the majority of the people are in their 20's, and they have quite a large group of them. It was great. We sang some songs and we heard from this guy named Herbert, who is also from the church and he had a message about our consciences then we sang one or two more songs, then we ATE! Yes, we ate. It was great, because I have never heard of a youth group that ate at the meetings. So it was nice, because we got to talk and fellowship. A girl, I can't remember what her name is, she translated for me, the message from Herbert, and I talked with a girl named Eva as well. Both of the girls have gone to the U.S. for a year a couple of years ago, so they spoke really good English. Also, I talked with a guy that had been to Canada for a year, and he is very nice. I like him. It seems like he understands a little bit more than everyone else, which is totally what I need. So I stayed about three and a half hours or so (long, but fun) and then went home. It was a nice time, because the people from the church are 20 times more nice than the people from school.
Saturday, we had our first inbound meeting. It was interesting. We took the train to Stuttgart to the airport. It was our meeting place, which was kind of cool, but odd that we had the meeting three weeks after arriving at the airport. Eugenio and I were late because of the train times and we had started out an hour early before the meeting started! So we were in a hurry, but the train went really slow to the airport. Anyhow, so we had a tour of the airport and where the firefighters went and all about the trucks that they drive, and the practice airplanes, and we saw planes take off and come in, as well as where they sort the baggage. It was kind of neat. Also kind of boring, but that's okay. After the airport, we went to Cannstatter Volksfest in Stuttgart, which is kind of like Oktoberfest, but it is in Stuttgart, and not so internationally known. As soon as we got there, I was thinking; 'Man! This puts West Coast Amusements to shame!' It was a lot like the Armstrong IPE and it was so awesome! The rides were utterly crazy, and I went on two. (The first one seemed pretty tame, and to my surprise, it was more than what it had seemed. But it was wicked fun! Although the tickets to ride, were pretty pricey. The second one was a roller coaster, and I thought I was going to die! Then I coaxed myself to breathe, and everything was much better. I commend them for the thrilling ride, I really do.) There were some pretty outrageous rides there! I can't even describe them, because words just don't do them justice. Like I said, West Coast Amusements would have their jaws on the ground!
Anyhow, so at first, I was rather homesick, being at the airport and all, I desperately wished that I could go on the plane home, and at the Volksfest, it reminded me a lot of home and fond memories. There are about 18 inbounds here, in district 1830, and that really surprised me. I was hoping and expecting more! But the main countries of inbounds are Canada, U.S., and Mexico. There are about three or four from each of those countries, there is a couple from Argentina, one from Columbia, one from Japan, one from Thailand, and a couple others, but I forget. So you either speak English or Spanish, really. I was kind of disappointed, because I was expecting and hoping to have more people in the district and more people from different countries, like 5060, but I guess, with Rotary, everything is really, just different. So anyhow, at first, I was a bit bummed and sad, but then I started talking to this guy from Mexico, Emmanuel, and he was super nice. We were walking and talking when we went to one of the big tents to have our lunch\dinner. The tents, are really neat (besides the fact that the majority of people are drunk and there is a lot of smoke because people smoke in the tent) because there are hundreds of people squished into one big tent, and there is a live band playing festive music, people are dancing on the benches of the tables (you have to stand if you want to order something, then the waiter or waitress comes to you) and they are singing, and laughing, and people seem to have a good time! While we were at the tent, we sat in a reserved seating area (which was nice, because we weren't with all the drunk people) and we were served. Almost everyone ordered the typical 1L beer (which is half lemonade), but I wasn't into that, so I drank .4 L of 7 Up. I am not into drinking 1L of anything in one sitting anyways. But it was unbelievable watching the waitresses!! They carry like, 5 of those FULL GLASS 1 LITER beer mugs! IN ONE HAND!!! So they are carrying at least 10 mugs in their arms at once. It is really impressive. Everyone was served the same for lunch\dinner too: a half of about a 2 pound chicken and a bun. It was really good. The chicken was rotisserie style and you should have seen them cooking them. There are like, hundreds of those birds cooking on these rotisserie things. Its neat. And so we stayed in the tent for a while, and a group of us went out of the tent later on (after the meeting was 'officially' over). We walked around, bought some pins and souvenirs, went on a couple of rides, I bought a Gingerbread Love Heart Cookie (they are a typical souvenir) and some chocolate covered bananas and strawberries, which were to die for! It was fun once I started talking with people and started to open up a bit. It was really nice to have Alex there from district 5060, it made things a bit easier, knowing that there is someone there from my district. Although it was kind of sad, just comparing first day of school, etc, with her. People seem to be a bit more personable in her area.
Anyhow, so at about 8 we started for home. I was unimpressed with the lack of responsible drinking within the exchange students and some of the rebounds. It was not a happy night after that. Eugenio and I got off at the wrong stop, people were drunk and throwing up, and I was very upset and homesick. Ralf came and got us from the train station we were at. I felt very guilty that he had to come and pick us up, but he said that it was normal, and that it was okay. I am very thankful! So the experience coming home and after was not so great, and made me very homesick. But the time that I spent there was nice.
The next day, Sunday, it was a thanksgiving service at church (Erntedank fest). It was really neat. They don't have it like a thanksgiving in Canada or the U.S.. It is more thanks to God for everything that He gives us. So it was super awesome because it was focused on God and being thankful for what we have! (the thanksgiving holiday is actually this Sunday but we celebrated it last Sunday) So we had lunch after the service and we talked (Herbert translated for me and I ate lunch with Addi and Kristina and a girl..I forget her name, they were all very nice) and had a nice time. There was another short service at 2pm, but I went home after the lunch. When I came home, I helped Bebe made necklaces and bracelets for her art exhibition in the coming weeks. And that was nice, to relax and spend time with her. Then I had a nap and tried to do some studying. Then at about 6 45Pm, Kristina picked me up to go to this youth service at the school in Böbingen. It was cool. It reminded me of church a little, because there was more contemporary music and there were drums and piano, and bass, and guitar and someone singing. It was much nicer, because I like the live music, instead of the CD music. The church, though is more conservative and traditional than the Salmon Arm one. Which is okay. It is different, but the people are very friendly. A girl translated the message that was said at the youth night. There was a guy from Austria that was giving the message about not getting enough from life, and finding satisfaction in Jesus! It was good. There were a lot of people there, and again, the age group was from about 16 to 30. So it was an older group, but nice. It gave a different perspective and audience than I am used to, but it was good. I love how they pray though, the thought of prayer in a different language and culture, is so awesome to me. It boggles my mind! Because I think, well, yeah, of course, God must speak German too! (and every other language) I felt my eyes open a teensy bit.
So I stayed for a bit, and everyone stayed WAY longer than I did, but I had school Monday. So on Monday, it was a very long day, I had to go to Heubach AND Aalen. It was not a good day though. I had a confusing first class. I didn't know if I was in the right class, because we had been away for the first full two weeks and I think the class might have switched classrooms, but it was weird. The teacher didn't say anything to me. Not even ask what my name was. It was funny. I was sitting in the back of the room, and then he looked over, after, when everyone was doing work (I was working in my German workbook) and he came over to where I was sitting. I took out my schedule for school, and pointed to the classroom, and he just smiled and made a funny mark on the paper, and then went back to the front of the class. It was funny and odd. I didn't know what to think about it. He didn't even ask me anything the whole class. The class was NWT, which is like natural sciences and technology, I think.
Then when we came back to the regular room that we are in, I sat in what I thought was the back of the room, but I saw Eugenio take a desk and put it one row back. I was like 'what are you doing??' and then this guy from my class came and stared at me. And I was like, okay, there is a spot here and here on either side of me, pick one. (of course, I did all this with body language) And he just stared at me. I was like, well, whatever. Then he said that I was sitting in his spot. OH! A light went on, and I guess the last row of desks was gone, so I was sitting where he normally sits. Well, I had a choice to make. Get up and go to another seat, or just stay where I was. Okay, well I quickly thought about this. No one talks to me in school because I don't sit next to anyone, because they have their own friends. I am not doing enough to integrate myself. I am not being assertive. I won't make friends if don't sit with people, and I have to be assertive. Obviously no one else is trying to make me feel welcome in the class, so I have to take the first step. So I said, okay. I will stay here. What is the harm in sitting somewhere different for one day???
Obviously I did something VERY wrong. The guy was very upset by this. He was not impressed, and the rest of the class thought that I was crazy and stupid for not getting out of my seat. But I innocently thought that I didn't want to be segregated from the rest of the class like an African American in the 60's. And so I sat. Like Rosa Parks. Or so I thought.
So the teacher said sit down to the guy, and he took a seat beside Eugenio in the back, because I wouldn't move. I thought that it was both good for me, Eugenio (because now someone was forced to talk to him too..sometimes I feel bad for the kid because no one talks to him either...except me) and also this guy, because perhaps it would enable him to talk to someone different for a change. Anyhow, I felt like I had accomplished something by stepping out of my quiet, reserved shell and that I was doing something that took a little courage, something that I lack in when it comes to making friends, when I am not used to the setting (especially in another country and I don't speak the language...yet). So I was thinking about it, at the time, and was feeling like finally, I did not take the passive position, where I am not talked to, or don't talk to anyone and sit in the corner alone. But then after two classes, the guy came up to me and asked me again why I was sitting in his seat. I said 'to integrate' and his reply was 'you are already integrated.' In my mind I did not believe this, since no one talks to me at school. So he again asked me to move. When I didn't, he asked me if I understood. It was a little too much for me at this point and when I was thinking about everything, I felt horrible. Like no one wanted me there, like no one wanted to be my friend, and no one understood what it was like. So I told him that yes, I understood, and I packed up my things, and went to the bathroom and cried.
I was in there for about 10 minutes and a girl named Jacky (who is the class speaker, I believe) came in and found me. It was nice. God answered a prayer, and she talked to me, and I asked her why no one talks to me at school. I think she was a bit embarrassed about this, and she talked to me about things. I guess, it's that I am shy, and when no one expresses an interest to be my friend, I just close up. And I guess if it is the other way, I would open up right away, but they don't know this. Anyhow. I talked to her, and then I wanted to go home (both to Canada and to the Sporys. But I knew that I couldn't do either.) So after she said that she would talk to her friends and the class, I told her she should go back to class, and I went to the area where there are tables and did some work until the next break. Then I went to Nils' class to tell him I was going to wait for him and the teacher invited me to sit in on their class. That was fun. They are in grade 5 and are learning English. I liked Nils' class much better! The kids were nice, and more interested in the fact that I was there. It was great for Nils too, Ralf told me that he loved it when I was there. :) Anyhow, and so the day wasn't so great.
Anyhow. But in the evening, after the German course, I spent some time with Ralf and Bebe and we talked, and it was a nice evening. I love hanging out with them. It is nice too, because they are understanding.
Then today, I was very worried about going to school. Because Eugenio told me that everyone thinks that I am crazy now. But I am convincing myself that I don't need to care about what they think of me. Its what God thinks of me that matters, and I know that He loves me no matter what. I was thinking though, about how I need to deal with this situation. If I didn't show up, I would be a coward. Although I feel like one for running from the classroom yesterday. But anyhow, I went and today was better, because I hardly cared that no one talked to me. I was more focused on how God sees me. And today was better. It was good to face that fear, it was an accomplishment today. And after school, Jacky and her two friends came and asked me to come with them to Aalen for dinner on Thursday. So that was super nice too. I think that I will go (even though it is the same night as youth group this week, I think that it is important to go with them for the first time to show them who I am outside of school). Anyhow. So today was much better.
Last night I was reading over the papers that we were given from the Outbound Orientation Weekend in the spring, and oh my goodness, does it ever hit home! I was thinking at the time, that these things wouldn't apply to me so much, and that I wouldn't need to bring them, but am I ever glad that I did! Rotary knows their stuff! And am I ever glad that I have 5060 behind my back, supporting me! I am super glad, and I felt so much closer to Rotary, realizing that they understand how I am feeling, and other people have been through this too. So it was comforting! I was very reassured that I was not alone in this, that every exchange student goes through something like this, and hard times, especially with the language at first. Was I ever glad!!
Anyhow, so today I went to get my passport type photos for my visa (yes, I know it should have been done two weeks ago, but don't worry, it's okay) and that was really great. They turned out really nice, and I love the guy from the studio we took them at.. He is super nice, and did a good job. His work is really good. Kathryn Kemp phoned me today and I am meeting her on Thursday, from my district 5060. So that is nice. She is a Rotarian. And then we came home, ate, and Bebe had a present for me!!
A DIRNDL!!! My very own!!! I was super, super excited, because I wanted one so very much!!! I can wear it to Oktoberfest, and it is great! Bebe and Ralf bought it from a friend and eBay for me, and it is white with lime green flowers! I love it! And I have a white apron! And it is a bit short, so Bebe will make it a little longer for me tomorrow (it was way too long when they got it, and she had hemmed it, but she thinks that I will be always pulling it down, so she said that she would make it longer for me! She is so sweet! :P) and she also made me a leather little purse with a strap made from the dirndl material!! It is so lovely! I hugged them and said thank you many times! They are so wonderful! And Bebe and I put on our dirndls and tried to find the best shoes that looked the best, and then were trying on necklaces and earrings that went with the shoes and dirndls the best. It was so fun. And it was great too! I feel very loved and spoilt. :) It was a nice change from the not so great day yesterday. I love hanging out with my host family. They make me feel very at home. :)
Anyhow. I have to go to bed. I will write more possibly next week. Sorry that I am not able to reply to every email, but I am will try to keep the blog as up to date as I can! Thank you everyone for your support and emails. It is nice to hear from home, and thank you that you have made it possible for me to be here. I am ever so thankful! I hope to learn lots from these experiences, and I feel that I am really starting to get used to being here, and to overcome some fears and differences of culture and character. So danke! And bis später!
K
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